At least I can admit it

And..once again I must say I HATE LIES!!! It's not like I don't like 'em but I truly hate when I get lied to. I'd rather be sad or mad at the whole world because of truth than be satisfied by lying.

I remember how I used to lie to everybody about everything. I lied to my parents, I lied to my friends, I lied to coaches, teachers.. to make myself a better person than I was. But what's the freakin' point!? Where did it lead me? Nowhere.. I just got involved in more and more lies. And then I caught myself at the point where I was living a double life. That life was the one I made up with my lies. Reaching this point, I stopped and took a minute to think over what have I done to myself and people around me, what kind of lying monster I had become. Then I understood, the more you lie the more you are going to regret it at the end.. and I had to make a quick decision before I got the ending I didn't want. I left my past to be only my past, never bringing it up again. I promised myself to never lie again. And I'm not talking about little lies like "Oh, I forgot to do my homework!" or "No, I didn't get your call!" and stuff like that.. those are tiny ones (sounds silly :D).. but I'm talking about LIES like "My cousin died, she got a cancer." or "My aunt couldn't come, she is seriously sick." <--- these are lies I made up.. can you believe??? And if you were asking me why? what's the point? I could not answer. Maybe to get more attention, maybe to take away the blame putting it on others.. I don't know, I REALLY DON'T KNOW!!! And none of y'all will ever understand how ashamed I feel, how horrible I feel about myself for doing it.

But I'm over it..as I said, I left it to be my past. Since that time I bite my tongue not to lie but tell the truth, and it does not matter how hard it is..'cause LIES WON'T LEAD YOU ANYWHERE!!! Lies hurt, lies break, lies tear you apart..

Why am I telling this.. it's because I get lied to more and more often. The saddest part is that I know the truth listening to lies. And I feel bad for the person staying next to me, 'cause it means you are a coward just the same one I was once.. sad.. really sad!!! I am not the person to judge anyone, I just want you all to be the judges for yourself. Take a look from aside.. Are you satisfied by life you're living!?